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Post by Jennifer on Feb 5, 2011 19:44:10 GMT -6
I just need to vent a bit I just have so much going on I feel like I could go crazy! We have our SA next week and i am scared to death about that! My business always keeps me crazy busy but I am a bit behind on emails and orders so it goes to another stress level when it gets like this, we are moving at the end of this month and have hardly begun to pack, we have so much to buy for our move, speaking of money I am fuming because we were supposed to get our tax money this past Monday now they are saying they won't even begin to process it til the 14th of Feb., I have some anxiety/depression issues, not diagnosed but it's there and it has been acting up more lately from all the stress, I so want to loose these last 20 lbs too but am not having much luck with it not that i am trying to hard! DH has some depression issues too but you know how men react to it, not by crying and he goes in and out of being a butt so that's hard too. Then to top it off I have baby fever really bad right now and that's not helping, so many people I know are having their babies and though I am happy for them it makes it harder! Don't get me wrong I love my life but it all feels like so much right now, do you ever get those days? I usually have my crap straight so everything feeling out of control makes me crazy And no running this board does NOT add to my stress, I love it, it's my get away! DH and I 13 wedding anniversary is on Feb 14 Valentines Day and we are going to have a quite evening together, out to dinner and stuff, I cannot wait and i am sure that will help! Plus everything should calm down next month but til then, ahh! lol! Ok I am done with my rant and rambling! just had to get that off my chest! just one of those days!
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Post by kews on Feb 5, 2011 19:46:39 GMT -6
Jen so sorry you are stressed and all. I can understand and you already dealt with my vent so vent away.
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Post by hsmom24 on Feb 5, 2011 19:56:36 GMT -6
Aww Jen, that's a LOT of stuff going on and stress to be dealing with. ((hugs)) Where are you moving too? (I'm sure you've said before, but I don't remember) I hope DH starts feeling better so he can be more of a help instead of adding to the stress.
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 5, 2011 20:08:18 GMT -6
Thanks and I really hate to vent like this I just needed to let it out We are just moving to town, same town, we just live in the county (right outside of town) right now so it's not a far move, just 10 miles away BUT it is going to help us out so much. It is SO expensive living in the county here. Like Our gas bill JUST gas for last month was $500!!!! All of our utilities are paid individually out here and in the winter our utilities are like $800 a month, I am not sure of anyone who could afford that and it's killing us. In the summer our electric bill is sky high! It is a strategical move, will help our bills by like 1200/m, when you factor in everything , like gas we will be much closer to DH's job and even stores lol, then utilities will be a ton cheaper in town, plus some other bills will be lower. We are moving to a REALLY nice place but that's another thing and I think I mentioned this before we are making a huge move from being homeowners to renting again. I really don't like that idea but we have to take this step if we ever want to build our dream home in city limits, but that won't be for 3-4 yrs, we want to get a huge savings added up and we will def be able to once we move! DH is usually ok but he does not react to stress well either. I get where I need to be comforted and loved when things get stressful and he gets irritated and crabby and kinda pulls away But we are working on it!
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Post by hsmom24 on Feb 5, 2011 20:47:39 GMT -6
Okay, I remember now. Do you already have a buyer for your house, or are you hoping that it'll sell once you're moved out?
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 5, 2011 20:50:53 GMT -6
Well actually the guy that is listing our house for us wants to put a bid on it!!! I know it's crazy! He buys houses for income property, so we shall see!
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Post by hsmom24 on Feb 5, 2011 21:04:51 GMT -6
Oh my goodness, that's crazy, but sooo cool if it worked out that way! Then you wouldn't have the stress of dealing with double mortgage/rent for too long. I hope it sells quickly, regardless of who the buyer is.
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Post by kews on Feb 5, 2011 21:09:50 GMT -6
I pray it sells quickly and for at least what you need to cover the mortgage (we had to sell our house a few years ago and ended up at a loss, which I would not wish on my worst enemy)
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 5, 2011 21:26:25 GMT -6
I know, this would be amazing if it all works out like we are hoping!
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 5, 2011 23:22:58 GMT -6
Oh yeah and i forgot to mention in my original post of messed up things in my life right now, that the oddest thing also happened just recently. So an old boyfriend from HS found me on FB so I thought what the heck and i approved it. Umm maybe the wrong idea. I mean this guy was was my "first", first real serious BF we were together for 1 1/2 in HS that's a long tiem in HS, he was my first as in took my virginity etc... Anyway things ended odd (cause he wanted it to, he broke it off with me and i was soo hurt) I got together wit h my now DH a couple of months after he broke up with me. Anyway in HS (my senior year) after he found out my now DH and i were serious he tried to get me back and was like so sorry for everything yady da! I was like well sorry I am now engaged to my new BF, and that was the end of it. I have not seen him in YEARS!! Then he finds me on facebook a couple of weeks ago and he keeps messaging me. He just got married a couple of years ago and has a 2yr old baby. Oh ad here's something you will find very interesting (I just found this out about 6m ago) he and his new wife bought a house right across the street and 2 houses over from my parents house and my childhood home (that he practically lived at when we were in HS) Uh that is crazy isn't it! Anyway he is messaging me like crazy on FB now and you know what he said to me? He said 'do you ever wish things had turned out differently'? I am like HUH?! Why say this now years later oh and BTW YOU broke it off and broke my little heart back then! Anyway i replied back with I don't think that's a good question to ask this many years later especially being we are both married' and I left it tat that. He replied back (and he is married) 'I think about this all of the time and I really think I goofed up big time years ago and would just love the opportunity to go back and do it all over again if i had the chance"!! Then he went on to say that he has been wanting to gt this off his chest for years and he was glad we talked. lol he actually did all the talking.... Like life isn't crazy enough as it is to add this to it, not that anything he said matters because I am happily married but can you believe this?!
Thought i would share this, it is CRAZY, like life isn't throwing me enough right now lol!
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Post by hsmom24 on Feb 6, 2011 0:20:31 GMT -6
Oh my gosh, talk about weird, especially since you tried to close the conversation. I'll admit that I've thought about the what-ifs in life, and I've actually talking to my "dream husband" (or a least the person I always thought would make my dream DH) about it recently. It wasn't weird to talk to him about it though, because we both know that we can't go back and change anything, and that we're happy with how things turned out. I guess it's odd to even talk to someone about that, but it was actually really good, and healthy, for me to get it off my chest. Maybe this old BF just needed that so he could "move on"??
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 6, 2011 0:32:50 GMT -6
I know Leslie, it was sooo weird and came out of nowhere! maybe that is what he needed to move on, maybe! He said he is sad that we lost touch for so long, hmm I guess we can be FB friends. Oh and he said he wants to meet sometime for a drink so we can catch up lol, I don't know about that!
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Post by carrie1013 on Feb 6, 2011 0:34:02 GMT -6
whoa, that is messed up, I think I would have to dump him as a FB friend, after a short little "it was nce to talk, but I have no intentions of going back. Sounds like he wants to relive HS, the younger years, whatever. He must be having a hard time adjusting to real life and trying to reason out how things went wrong.
A few months ago an old HS friend and I were chatting and she was telling me that one of our classmates was chatting with her at the same time about how he wanted her to dump her DH & kids for him and how she was always leading him on in HS and he was so in love with her, balh, blah. All of which I am sure is true, she was that way and well frankly every guy liked her, but I was always convinced it was because anyone who showed her the slightest bit of attention she slept with--except him! Come to think of it that was right before our 15 year reunion--okay--everything makes sense. he was looking for the HS easy he somehow missed out on 15 years ago--so sad. He at least was single.
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Post by Jennifer on Feb 6, 2011 0:39:44 GMT -6
I don't think he means any harm, I got the feeling he was just getting these thoughts off his chest that was bottled up for a long time and this was the first time we talked so he just let it out! I would NEVER do anything to hurt my DH or family never so that's not a worry and i cannot see him attempting anything to hurt anyone either, I just think he needed to just get these feelings out for whatever reason....
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Post by kews on Feb 6, 2011 11:58:58 GMT -6
Jen- I had a conversation with a friend like that, he is now a youth pastor and happily married. It was more like a did you know type thing, not reliving anything. I would just be careful with bring FB friends
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